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Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW

Your Traitor Within

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Jessica Anne Pressler LCSW came up with the concept Traitor Within to give people a tangible and workable tool that help identify and overcome their repetitive self-sabotaging behavior. Her hope is that once a person gains insight into their Traitor Within, then they can begin to silence their traitor, thus empowering themselves and begin to heal. “Your Traitor Within” will feature conversations and stories about toxicity, healing, empowerment, and more. Www.jessicaannepressler.com @jessicaannepressler

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Growing Up in a Narcissistic Family: Childhood Wounds, Love & Healing with Dr. Anthony Mazzella

1 hr 15 min

Growing Up in a Narcissistic Family: Childhood Wounds, Love & Healing with Dr. Anthony Mazzella What happens when a family that looks perfect on the outside is anything but healthy behind closed doors? In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, welcomes Dr. Anthony Mazzella, psychoanalyst, psychotherapist, and host of The Narcissism Decoder podcast, for an honest and deeply personal conversation about narcissistic family dynamics, childhood trauma, and the patterns we carry into adulthood. Drawing from Jessica's own family experiences, they explore how children adapt to emotionally unhealthy environments, why we may repeatedly seek love and validation from unavailable people, and how childhood survival mechanisms can become self-destructive patterns in adult relationships. Together, they discuss narcissism, emotional neglect, fear of abandonment, and how self-awareness and meaningful inner work can help us break unhealthy cycles. Because understanding your past is the first step toward changing your future. Connect with Dr. Anthony Mazzella Website: https://www.drmazzella.com/ Instagram: @thenarcissism.decoder Podcast: The Narcissism Decoder Explore Traitor Within Jessica's novel, Traitor Within: How Her Fear of Abandonment Led Her to Abandon Herself, explores how childhood wounds, fear of abandonment, and self-sabotaging behaviors can shape our relationships and our lives. Through Cassandra's journey, readers are invited to recognize their own Traitor Within and discover that it is never too late to break unhealthy patterns and reclaim their sense of self. Purchase Traitor Within here: AmazonBarnes & NobleApple BooksContent Note: This episode includes discussions of childhood trauma, family dysfunction, emotional abuse, addiction, and loss. Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Breaking Generational Silence with Sally Wolfe

55 min

Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, is joined by author Sally Lefton Wolfe for a deeply personal conversation about Holocaust survival, intergenerational trauma, grief, and learning to express emotions after growing up in a family where so much went unspoken. Sally was raised by two Holocaust survivors from Czechoslovakia who endured multiple concentration camps. Her parents were loving, but the enormity of what they had survived was rarely discussed. As a child, Sally knew something was different. She had no grandparents, fewer relatives than many of her friends, and a mother who experienced nightmares and intense reactions connected to the past. Without anyone explicitly telling her to suppress her emotions, Sally learned to keep much of what she felt inside. As an adult, she began noticing similar patterns among other children of Holocaust survivors. She started interviewing members of the second generation, and that research eventually became her book, The Survivor’s Legacy. Through those stories, Sally encountered the many ways unresolved trauma could shape the next generation, from difficulty expressing emotion and intense fears around safety to overprotection, anger, anxiety, and the pressure to simply “carry on.” One of the most moving parts of the episode comes when Sally discusses the sudden death of her first husband, when her sons were only 10 and 16. Her first instinct was to hide her grief from them. Then she realized that doing so would teach them the same lesson she had absorbed as a child: painful feelings should remain hidden. Sally made a conscious decision to let her sons see her sadness and give them permission to speak about their own grief. Jessica connects Sally’s experience to the Traitor Within framework: the protective parts we develop early in life can help us manage what feels unbearable, but those same defenses can become restrictive in adulthood. For Sally, the emotional “wall” once served a purpose. Healing now involves learning that she can...

Your Traitor Within: Coercive Control and Protective Parenting with Dr. Christine Cocchiola

45 min

Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, is joined by Dr. Christine M. Cocchiola, DSW, LCSW, an internationally recognized expert on coercive control and its impact on adult and child victims. Dr. Cocchiola earned her Doctorate in Clinical Social Work from NYU, where she was mentored by Dr. Evan Stark, and now works as a college professor, therapeutic parenting and divorce/custody coach, advocate, author, educator, and survivor. She is the creator of The Protective Parenting Program, host of Perfect Prey: A Coercive Control Podcast, author of Every Moment of Every Day, and co-author of FRAMED: Women in the Family Court Underworld. Jessica and Christine begin with a truth both women know personally: education does not make someone immune from an abusive or coercively controlling relationship. Christine describes research identifying common traits among victims and survivors such as conscientiousness, agreeableness, loyalty, optimism, and the instinct to fix problems, qualities that can become vulnerabilities in the hands of a highly manipulative person. They discuss how coercive control affects children even when there is no physical violence. Children may learn to hide parts of themselves, perform for approval, monitor a parent’s moods, or gradually lose trust in a safe caregiver. Christine explains why preserving or rebuilding attachment with the protective parent is central to healing and why connection often has to come before traditional discipline or correction. Christine also shares her own experience of slowly recognizing what had been happening inside her family, including the moment her daughter revealed that the undermining of their relationship had begun years earlier. She explains how seemingly small comments can reshape a child’s perception over time without ever sounding like an obvious attack. The conversation also explores emotional and psychological abuse, trauma bonds, anger after prolonged subjugation, post-separation abuse, family court, repair, and the enor...

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Growing Up in a Narcissistic Family: Childhood Wounds, Love & Healing with Dr. Anthony Mazzella

1 hr 15 min

Growing Up in a Narcissistic Family: Childhood Wounds, Love & Healing with Dr. Anthony Mazzella What happens when a family that looks perfect on the outside is anything but healthy behind closed doors? In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, welcomes Dr. Anthony Mazzella, psychoanalyst, psychotherapist, and host of The Narcissism Decoder podcast, for an honest and deeply personal conversation about narcissistic family dynamics, childhood trauma, and the patterns we carry into adulthood. Drawing from Jessica's own family experiences, they explore how children adapt to emotionally unhealthy environments, why we may repeatedly seek love and validation from unavailable people, and how childhood survival mechanisms can become self-destructive patterns in adult relationships. Together, they discuss narcissism, emotional neglect, fear of abandonment, and how self-awareness and meaningful inner work can help us break unhealthy cycles. Because understanding your past is the first step toward changing your future. Connect with Dr. Anthony Mazzella Website: https://www.drmazzella.com/ Instagram: @thenarcissism.decoder Podcast: The Narcissism Decoder Explore Traitor Within Jessica's novel, Traitor Within: How Her Fear of Abandonment Led Her to Abandon Herself, explores how childhood wounds, fear of abandonment, and self-sabotaging behaviors can shape our relationships and our lives. Through Cassandra's journey, readers are invited to recognize their own Traitor Within and discover that it is never too late to break unhealthy patterns and reclaim their sense of self. Purchase Traitor Within here: AmazonBarnes & NobleApple BooksContent Note: This episode includes discussions of childhood trauma, family dysfunction, emotional abuse, addiction, and loss. Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Breaking Generational Silence with Sally Wolfe

55 min

Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, is joined by author Sally Lefton Wolfe for a deeply personal conversation about Holocaust survival, intergenerational trauma, grief, and learning to express emotions after growing up in a family where so much went unspoken. Sally was raised by two Holocaust survivors from Czechoslovakia who endured multiple concentration camps. Her parents were loving, but the enormity of what they had survived was rarely discussed. As a child, Sally knew something was different. She had no grandparents, fewer relatives than many of her friends, and a mother who experienced nightmares and intense reactions connected to the past. Without anyone explicitly telling her to suppress her emotions, Sally learned to keep much of what she felt inside. As an adult, she began noticing similar patterns among other children of Holocaust survivors. She started interviewing members of the second generation, and that research eventually became her book, The Survivor’s Legacy. Through those stories, Sally encountered the many ways unresolved trauma could shape the next generation, from difficulty expressing emotion and intense fears around safety to overprotection, anger, anxiety, and the pressure to simply “carry on.” One of the most moving parts of the episode comes when Sally discusses the sudden death of her first husband, when her sons were only 10 and 16. Her first instinct was to hide her grief from them. Then she realized that doing so would teach them the same lesson she had absorbed as a child: painful feelings should remain hidden. Sally made a conscious decision to let her sons see her sadness and give them permission to speak about their own grief. Jessica connects Sally’s experience to the Traitor Within framework: the protective parts we develop early in life can help us manage what feels unbearable, but those same defenses can become restrictive in adulthood. For Sally, the emotional “wall” once served a purpose. Healing now involves learning that she can...

Your Traitor Within: Coercive Control and Protective Parenting with Dr. Christine Cocchiola

45 min

Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, is joined by Dr. Christine M. Cocchiola, DSW, LCSW, an internationally recognized expert on coercive control and its impact on adult and child victims. Dr. Cocchiola earned her Doctorate in Clinical Social Work from NYU, where she was mentored by Dr. Evan Stark, and now works as a college professor, therapeutic parenting and divorce/custody coach, advocate, author, educator, and survivor. She is the creator of The Protective Parenting Program, host of Perfect Prey: A Coercive Control Podcast, author of Every Moment of Every Day, and co-author of FRAMED: Women in the Family Court Underworld. Jessica and Christine begin with a truth both women know personally: education does not make someone immune from an abusive or coercively controlling relationship. Christine describes research identifying common traits among victims and survivors such as conscientiousness, agreeableness, loyalty, optimism, and the instinct to fix problems, qualities that can become vulnerabilities in the hands of a highly manipulative person. They discuss how coercive control affects children even when there is no physical violence. Children may learn to hide parts of themselves, perform for approval, monitor a parent’s moods, or gradually lose trust in a safe caregiver. Christine explains why preserving or rebuilding attachment with the protective parent is central to healing and why connection often has to come before traditional discipline or correction. Christine also shares her own experience of slowly recognizing what had been happening inside her family, including the moment her daughter revealed that the undermining of their relationship had begun years earlier. She explains how seemingly small comments can reshape a child’s perception over time without ever sounding like an obvious attack. The conversation also explores emotional and psychological abuse, trauma bonds, anger after prolonged subjugation, post-separation abuse, family court, repair, and the enor...

Your Traitor Within: Growing from the Ashes with Sheila Lowe

1 hr 5 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, sits down with Sheila Lowe, a certified forensic handwriting examiner with a Master of Science in Psychology and the author of nonfiction, forensic mystery, paranormal suspense, and memoir. Her book Growing from the Ashes chronicles the spiritual journey that followed the murder of her daughter, Jennifer, in 2000.  Sheila begins with her childhood in England and her upbringing in the Jehovah’s Witness faith, a religious environment she now describes as a cult. She later married a congregation elder who was admired and trusted in public but abusive at home. Sheila recalls the moment her three-year-old daughter watched him speak from the platform and quietly asked, “Mommy, how come he’s not like that at home?” When Sheila sought help after he choked her and left a mark on her neck, another elder dismissed the violence rather than protecting her. Leaving the marriage also meant losing the community that had shaped nearly every part of her life. Sheila was expelled from the religion and cut off from the support system she had been taught to depend upon. She describes the grief, isolation, and suicidal thoughts that followed, as well as the moment she realized that although other people could take away her marriage, community, and former identity, they could not take away her mind. Jessica and Sheila trace the roots of Sheila’s Traitor Within to childhood. At fourteen, after Sheila’s father left, her mother told her that she wanted to throw herself under a train. Sheila assumed responsibility for keeping her mother alive and remained in the religion partly because she feared what leaving might do to her. That parentified role followed her into adulthood through people-pleasing, rescuing, staying too long in damaging relationships, and feeling responsible for everyone else’s survival. Jessica explains how a strategy that once helped a child maintain safety can become a misguided protective part in adulth...

Your Traitor Within: You Can’t Think Your Way Out of a Trauma Bond with Kendall Brown

1 hr 9 min

Why can you fully understand that a relationship is harming you and still feel unable to leave? Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, is joined by Kendall Brown, a certified Women’s Somatic Trauma & Relationship Coach and creator of The Secure Woman Era. After nearly a decade in back-to-back relationships with avoidant, emotionally abusive, and narcissistic men, Kendall began examining the childhood wounds and protective patterns that kept drawing her back into the same relationship cycle. Kendall explains her approach to somatic shadow work, which combines an exploration of the rejected or hidden parts of the self with body-based and nervous-system work. She and Jessica discuss why insight alone may not break a trauma bond. You can understand the relationship intellectually, recognize every red flag, and still experience an intense physical pull toward the person who hurt you. They connect this experience to the Traitor Within: the protective part formed in childhood that once helped you maintain safety, love, or connection. The child who became the fixer, good girl, peacekeeper, high achiever, or emotional caretaker may become an adult who ignores mistreatment, manages a partner’s emotions, and mistakes self-abandonment for love.  Jessica and Kendall also discuss the importance of becoming securely single, learning to recognize anger as useful information, grieving the relationship and future you believed you were going to have, and building support that understands why leaving a trauma bond is different from recovering from an ordinary breakup. In this episode:  Why familiar relationship dynamics can feel like chemistry  The difference between self-sabotage and outdated self-protection  How abandonment wounds can lead you to abandon yourself  Why fixers and deeply empathic people may stay focused on someone’s potential  How trauma bonds can continue in the body after the relationship ends  Why anger can alert you that a boundary has been crossed  The value of professional...

Your Traitor Within: Starting Over After Narcissistic Abuse with Liz Spicer

1 hr 0 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with Liz Spicer, a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, a certified functional medicine practitioner, and a trauma-informed coach who helps women rebuild their lives after emotionally abusive relationships. Liz spent twenty years in a marriage marked by emotional abuse before leaving at age fifty and beginning the difficult process of rediscovering herself. Together, Jessica and Liz explore the grief that follows leaving a long-term relationship, why healing often begins only after the relationship ends, and how the "Traitor Within" can keep survivors questioning themselves long after they've escaped the abuse. The conversation examines the profound grief that accompanies divorce later in life. Jessica and Liz discuss mourning the future you imagined, the years you invested, your sense of identity, your changing body, your sexuality, and the version of yourself that slowly disappeared inside the relationship. They explain why grief is not a sign that leaving was the wrong decision—it is part of healing. Liz courageously shares her own story of childhood sexual abuse, growing up feeling unseen, entering a marriage that repeated familiar emotional patterns, and eventually recognizing that what she believed was love was actually emotional abuse. Jessica and Liz discuss trauma bonds, love bombing, radical acceptance, cognitive dissonance, and the difficult realization that healing requires understanding both the narcissist and the parts of ourselves that kept us there. They also explore what happens after leaving. Many survivors believe freedom should feel immediate, yet Liz explains that this is often when grief truly begins. Jessica emphasizes that healing is not simply understanding what happened to you—it is understanding why it felt familiar, why your Traitor Within protected the relationship, and how to build a life that no longer requires self-abandonment. The episode also addresses parenting,...

Your Traitor Within: You Are Not Crazy with Kiki Mullican

1 hr 1 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with Kiki Mullican, a certified neuroscience coach with an undergraduate degree in psychology and more than 20 years of experience in mental health, human services, suicide prevention, case management, and community support. Kiki’s work focuses on childhood conditioning, toxic family systems, scapegoating, trauma patterns, and the ways early experiences shape adult relationships, identity, and survival strategies. Kiki shares how her fascination with psychology began as a child in the library, reading books she hoped would help her understand and fix the painful dynamics inside her family. She and Jessica discuss what happens when a child becomes the one trying to save everyone, why knowledge alone cannot change people who are not ready to change, and how family systems can turn the person naming the dysfunction into the problem. Together, Jessica and Kiki explore scapegoating, parentification, addiction, toxic family roles, chronic illness, agoraphobia, OCD, trauma bonds, cognitive dissonance, and the long process of learning that survival patterns are not personality flaws. Kiki speaks openly about growing up in a frightening family system, becoming the family scapegoat, trying to “fix” her mother, and later recognizing how familiar patterns continued to show up in relationships, health, self-perception, and her ability to feel safe in the world. The conversation also goes deeply into agoraphobia and the misconceptions around what it actually looks like. Kiki explains that for her, agoraphobia is not simply a fear of leaving the house. It is often a fear of people, judgment, being watched, being misunderstood, and being attacked for visible and invisible limitations. She shares how healing has happened through tiny exposures, setbacks, support, and learning to celebrate progress even when it does not look perfect from the outside. Jessica and Kiki also discuss suicide prevention, the importanc...

Your Traitor Within: Choosing Purpose Over Pain with Dr. Louise Beaubrun-Macaluso

37 min

In this deeply moving episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with psychologist, author, speaker, and podcast host Dr. Louise Beaubrun-Macaluso for a conversation about unimaginable loss, trauma, resilience, people-pleasing, grief, and discovering purpose after adversity. At just nineteen years old, Dr. Louise survived a devastating house fire that claimed the lives of five family members, including three of her younger sisters. She sustained third-degree burns over more than 70 percent of her body, underwent countless surgeries, and experienced limb amputations. Faced with overwhelming physical and emotional trauma, she made a life-changing decision: she would not allow tragedy to define the rest of her life. Together, Jessica and Dr. Louise discuss survivor's guilt, grief, body image after trauma, resilience, cognitive reframing, mindfulness, and the emotional work required to move from surviving to truly living. The conversation also explores the Traitor Within through the lens of people-pleasing, boundary-setting, and self-worth. Dr. Louise shares how losing her husband to COVID became another turning point in her healing journey, forcing her to stop abandoning her own needs in order to meet everyone else's expectations. This episode is a reminder that healing does not erase pain. It transforms our relationship with it. About Dr. Louise Beaubrun-Macaluso: Dr. Louise Beaubrun-Macaluso is a psychologist, author, speaker, and podcast host. After surviving a near-fatal house fire that profoundly changed her life, she dedicated her career to helping others navigate trauma, grief, resilience, emotional healing, and personal transformation. Through her private practice, speaking engagements, and writing, she empowers others to move beyond survival and create lives filled with purpose. Connect with Dr. Louise: Website: www.brokentobeblessed.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/loulouse08/ LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/me?trk=p_mwlite_fee...

Your Traitor Within: When Your Ex Turns the Kids Against You with Lisa Johnson

51 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with Lisa Johnson, co-founder of Been There Got Out, high-conflict divorce strategist, certified domestic violence advocate, author, and legal abuse educator. Lisa shares her extraordinary journey through high-conflict divorce, representing herself through scores of court appearances, helping pass Jennifers’ Law in Connecticut, and having her own case published in the Connecticut Law Journal, where it is now being used as legal precedent. Jennifers’ Law made Connecticut the third state in America to expand its legal definition of domestic violence to include coercive control. Together, Jessica and Lisa explore the reality that abuse often does not end when a relationship ends. They discuss coercive control, litigation abuse, custody battles, post-separation abuse, co-parenting chaos, and the ways manipulative partners may continue exerting power through the court system, finances, and children. The conversation also focuses on Lisa and Chris’s newest book, When Your Ex Turns the Kids Against You, released in March 2026 with a foreword by Bill Eddy. Lisa explains why children may reject a loving parent, how alienating behaviors impact entire families, and what parents can do to preserve relationships with their children during high-conflict separations. This episode is filled with practical insight, validation, and hope for anyone navigating high-conflict divorce, legal abuse, custody battles, estrangement, or parent-child contact problems. About Lisa Johnson: Lisa Johnson is the co-founder of Been There Got Out, a high-conflict divorce strategist and certified domestic violence advocate who successfully represented herself through scores of court appearances. Her case, published in the Connecticut Law Journal, is being used as legal precedent. Her live testimony helped pass Jennifers’ Law in Connecticut, the third state in America to expand its legal definition of domestic violence to include co...

Your Traitor Within: Reclaiming Your Voice After Coercive Control with Jennifer Parker

38 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with therapist, author, and educator Jennifer Parker, MSSW, for a powerful conversation about coercive control, intimate partner abuse, healing, and the internalized messages survivors carry long after a relationship ends. Jennifer is the author of Coercive Relationships: Find the Answers You Seek and the creator of the Journey to Healing intervention framework. Through her work with Find Your Voice: End the Silence, she trains therapists to better recognize coercive control and support survivors of abuse with greater skill, awareness, and compassion. Together, Jessica and Jennifer discuss why so many therapists historically missed the signs of coercive control, the dangers of treating symptoms without understanding context, and why survivors so often leave therapy feeling blamed rather than understood. They explore the overlap between Jennifer's concept of the "internalized abuser" and Jessica's framework of the Traitor Within, examining how childhood experiences, family dynamics, and abusive relationships can shape self-worth, self-doubt, and decision-making. Jennifer also shares her own Traitor Within story, including the painful awakening that followed infidelity in her first marriage, the childhood experiences that shaped her self-esteem, and the healing journey that ultimately led her to become an advocate, educator, and voice for survivors. This conversation is a reminder that healing is not about fixing what is wrong with you. It is about recognizing what happened to you, reclaiming your voice, and learning to trust yourself again. About Jennifer Parker: Jennifer Parker, MSSW, is a therapist, author of Coercive Relationships: Find the Answers You Seek, and creator of the Journey to Healing intervention framework. Through her work with Find Your Voice: End the Silence, she provides training and resources that help therapists support survivors of coercive control and intimate partner abuse...

Your Traitor Within: Why We Self-Sabotage Success with Nikki Heyder

40 min

The Business Behind the Trauma: Self-Sabotage, People-Pleasing, and the Entrepreneur's Traitor Within with Nikki Heyder.  In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with psychotherapist, author, and business mentor Nikki Heyder for a powerful conversation about the psychological patterns that quietly shape our careers, businesses, relationships, and sense of self-worth. Drawing from her unique background in both psychotherapy and business, Nikki explores the hidden reasons so many entrepreneurs struggle to execute even when they know exactly what they need to do. Together, Jessica and Nikki discuss self-sabotage, people-pleasing, perfectionism, hyper-independence, fear of visibility, imposter syndrome, and the internal barriers that often prevent people from fully stepping into their potential. Nikki shares her own Traitor Within story, including the childhood experiences that shaped her tendency toward people-pleasing and how those patterns followed her into romantic relationships, business decisions, burnout, over-delivering, undercharging, and eventually the collapse of a business she spent years building. This conversation explores the intersection of trauma, entrepreneurship, self-worth, and healing. Jessica and Nikki discuss why strategy alone is rarely enough, how nervous system patterns influence success, the importance of self-compassion, and why curiosity may be one of the most powerful tools available for personal growth. If you've ever known what you needed to do but found yourself unable to do it, this episode offers insight, understanding, and hope. About Nikki Heyder: Nikki Heyder is a psychotherapist, published author, and business mentor with more than 13 years of entrepreneurial experience. Holding both a Bachelor's Degree in Business and Organisational Behaviour and a Master's Degree in Psychotherapy, Nikki combines clinical psychological insight with practical business strategy. She specializes in helping heart-led en...

YTW: From Human Doing to Human Being: Nervous System Healing, Functional Freeze, and Trauma Recovery with Caroline Strawson

45 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with Caroline Strawson, award-winning nervous system expert, Hay House author, speaker, and survivor of domestic abuse, coercive control, homelessness, and profound personal adversity. Caroline shares the deeply personal journey that led her from PTSD, anxiety, panic attacks, debt, and the loss of her family home to becoming one of the leading voices in nervous system healing and trauma recovery today. Together, Jessica and Caroline explore the connection between childhood wounds, narcissistic abuse, codependency, trauma responses, and the nervous system. They discuss functional freeze, emotional regulation, Internal Family Systems, somatic healing, people-pleasing, perfectionism, and the ways many survivors unknowingly spend years trapped in survival mode while appearing functional from the outside. Caroline shares how the death of her mother, the collapse of her marriage, and the realization that traditional approaches to healing were not fully addressing her trauma led her to discover the missing piece: the nervous system. She explains why awareness alone is often not enough, how unresolved trauma becomes stored in the body, and why true healing requires more than simply understanding what happened. This powerful conversation also explores intergenerational trauma, parenting, self-worth, shame, boundaries, grief, and the process of moving from being a “human doing” to a “human being.” Caroline offers practical insight into why survivors often remain stuck, why time alone does not heal trauma, and how building nervous system capacity creates lasting change. If you have ever wondered why you continue to react in ways you understand intellectually but cannot seem to change emotionally, this episode is for you. About Caroline Strawson: Caroline Strawson is an award-winning nervous system expert, trauma educator, speaker, Hay House author, and survivor of domestic abuse and coercive control. Throu...

Your Traitor Within: Dr. Debra Kessler - The Child Who Learned to Shapeshift

41 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with Dr. Debra Kessler, a licensed clinical psychologist, child neurodiversity specialist, and former pediatric nurse with more than 20 years of experience helping families better understand the emotional, neurological, and developmental needs of children. Together, they explore how the “Traitor Within” begins forming in childhood through messaging, modeling, attachment wounds, and family systems, and how those early survival strategies later shape adult relationships, identity, self-worth, and emotional regulation. Jessica and Dr. Kessler discuss intergenerational trauma, nervous system regulation, neurodiversity, emotional attunement, parenting dynamics, and the ways children unconsciously shapeshift in order to feel safe, accepted, and loved. They also explore the importance of helping parents understand their own emotional triggers and attachment patterns so they can stop passing unresolved wounds onto future generations. Dr. Kessler shares how behavior is often the final expression of deeper unmet needs, regulation struggles, or sensory and emotional mismatches within the family system, and why compassion and curiosity are more effective than shame or punishment. The conversation also dives into the experience of growing up feeling “different,” how social systems often create internalized shame around learning differences and self-expression, and how children develop protective personas to survive emotionally unsafe environments. Together, Jessica and Dr. Kessler unpack the connection between the Traitor Within, false identities, emotional masking, and the lifelong process of learning how to safely become yourself again. About Dr. Debra Kessler: Dr. Debra Kessler is a licensed clinical psychologist and child neurodiversity specialist with more than 20 years of experience helping families move from confusion and frustration to connection and confidence. With a background in pediatric nursing...

Your Traitor Within: I Love You My Narcissist with Ali & Stefanie Schmahl

1 hr 5 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with filmmaker Ali Schmahl and actress/producer Stefanie Schmahl to discuss their psychological drama I Love You My Narcissist, a film exploring the devastating emotional impact of narcissistic relationships and the patterns that keep people trapped inside them. Through fictional storytelling grounded in real psychological dynamics, the film follows two survivors navigating manipulation, trauma bonding, emotional confusion, and the long process of reclaiming themselves. Jessica, Ali, and Stefanie discuss the importance of bringing narcissistic abuse “out of the darkness,” how film can help people recognize patterns they may not yet have language for, and why emotionally immersive storytelling can sometimes educate more powerfully than direct instruction. The conversation also explores narcissistic family systems, emotional conditioning, self-abandonment, and the role of the Traitor Within in keeping survivors stuck in painful cycles. About Ali Schmahl:  Ali Schmahl is a Berlin-based filmmaker, director, writer, and producer known for socially conscious and character-driven films. His work has screened at more than 80 international film festivals and received over 45 awards. His debut documentary Privileg explored gender identity and the challenges faced by the transgender community, and his latest feature I Love You My Narcissist combines psychological depth with cinematic storytelling to examine narcissistic abuse and its impact on survivors. About Stefanie Schmahl:  Stefanie Schmahl studied acting at the renowned William Esper Studio in New York City before returning to Germany to pursue work as an actor and producer. Her short film Anniversary screened at over 20 film festivals and earned multiple awards, including six Best Actress honors. Through I Love You My Narcissist, she continues exploring emotionally complex storytelling centered around trauma, relationships, and healing. Where to Fin...

Your Traitor Within: From Delusional to Discerning

1 hr 0 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with Erika Fracassa, creator of Delusional to Discerning, to explore the confusion, cognitive dissonance, and emotional chaos that often exist inside narcissistic relationships. After spending 15 years in a relationship that left her questioning her own reality, Erika now helps others reconnect with their intuition and rebuild self-trust through education, pattern recognition, and radical honesty. Together, Jessica and Erika discuss trauma bonds, narcissistic supply, gaslighting, self-abandonment, and the role of the Traitor Within in keeping people stuck in unhealthy dynamics. They also explore the grief that comes with radical acceptance, why healing is not linear, and how rebuilding self-trust becomes the foundation for lasting change. This conversation is deeply personal, educational, and validating for anyone who has ever felt confused inside a relationship that slowly disconnected them from themselves. About Erika Fracassa: Erika Fracassa is the creator of Delusional to Discerning, a platform dedicated to helping people make sense of confusing relationship dynamics and reconnect with their own clarity. Through her content, coaching, and growing online community, Erika helps others move from confusion to discernment by breaking down patterns people can finally recognize and trust. Where to Find Erika Fracassa: Instagram: @delusionaltodiscerning Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Amy Watkins LPC has a Scapegoat Reset

51 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with therapist, speaker, and author Amy Watkins to explore how childhood conditioning shapes the way we move through relationships, identity, and self-worth. Amy shares her deeply personal story of growing up in a high-control religious environment, surviving sexual abuse, and learning how the coping mechanisms that once kept her safe became the “Traitor Within” patterns that followed her into adulthood. Together, Jessica and Amy discuss trauma bonding, people-pleasing, religious shame, dissociation, narcissistic family systems, and the painful but transformative process of finally choosing yourself. They also explore what healing actually feels like—not just intellectually understanding your patterns, but experiencing safety in the body for the first time. About Amy Watkins:Amy Watkins, LPC, is a therapist, speaker, and author helping people uncover childhood patterns, break toxic cycles, and reconnect with their authentic selves. Her upcoming memoir Performing Normal is set for release in August. She is also the creator of the Scapegoat Reset coaching program. Where to Find Amy Watkins:Instagram: @gods.favorite.problemWebsite: https://scapegoatreset.com/ Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Unlocking Radiant Self-Worth with Victoria Lynn PonTell

35 min

 In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with Victoria Lynn PonTell, speaker, mentor, and creator of the 7 Keys to Unlocking Your Radiant Beauty. Together, they explore the concept of the Traitor Within and how patterns like self-doubt, perfectionism, people-pleasing, and inner criticism keep women disconnected from their true selves. Victoria shares her personal journey of overcoming these patterns and how she now helps others reclaim their confidence and self-worth. This conversation focuses on emotional resilience, mindset shifts, and the process of moving from self-betrayal to self-trust—highlighting how true transformation begins when you stop abandoning yourself and start choosing your own truth. About Victoria Lynn PonTell: Victoria Lynn PonTell is a speaker, mentor, and creator of the 7 Keys to Unlocking Your Radiant Beauty. Her work focuses on helping women overcome self-sabotage, build confidence, and reconnect with their authentic sense of self through practical tools and mindset transformation.  The Book: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0F22MSQBN  YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pyuRk0BMf-A  Website: https://victorialynnpontell.com  LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/victorialynnpontell-3a9400376/  Instagram: @victorialynnpontell Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Rewiring Trauma Bonds with Carissa Brockman

1 hr 26 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with Carissa Brockman, Canadian Certified Counsellor and trauma-trained somatic therapist, to explore the deeper psychological and nervous system patterns behind trauma bonds and narcissistic relationships. Carissa shares her personal story of being in an abusive relationship while studying to become a therapist, and how cognitive dissonance, early belief systems, and the nervous system keep people stuck even when they “know” something is wrong. Together, they unpack how the Traitor Within forms, why survivors stay, and why leaving is only the beginning of the healing process. The conversation also dives into attraction patterns, self-abandonment, and how to rebuild a sense of self, safety, and identity after abuse. About Carissa Brockman: Carissa Brockman is a Canadian Certified Counsellor, trauma-trained somatic therapist, and specialist in narcissistic abuse recovery and complex PTSD. Her work is deeply informed by her own lived experience, and she now helps others reclaim their reality and rewire their nervous systems for healthy love. Where to Find Carissa Brockman: Website: www.carissabrockman.com Instagram / TikTok / YouTube: @soulfully_embodied Masterclass Bundle:  https://carissa-brockman-0276.mykajabi.com/masterclass-bundle Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Stronger Than Before

53 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with Lisa Sonni, relationship coach and expert in trauma bond recovery, to explore why people stay in abusive dynamics and how those patterns form. They discuss trauma bonds, cognitive dissonance, and emotional entrapment, and how these connect to the Traitor Within—the internal pattern that overrides intuition and keeps you stuck. Lisa shares her Break & Rebuild Method and offers insight into how survivors can begin to reclaim their identity, self-worth, and clarity. About Lisa Sonni: Lisa Sonni is an internationally recognized relationship coach, author, and leading expert in trauma bond recovery. She has helped thousands of survivors break free from abusive patterns and rebuild their lives, and has built a community of over 1.6 million followers. Where to Find Lisa Sonni: TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@lisasonni Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lisasonnicoaching Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/LisaSonniStrongerThanBefore Support the show

Your Traitor Within: 1 Percent Philosophy

50 min

In this powerful episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with Dr. John A. King—survivor, author, and advocate—to explore the long-term impact of childhood trauma and the patterns we develop to survive it. Dr. King shares his deeply personal story of early abuse, memory fragmentation, and the moment his past resurfaced later in life. He speaks openly about how survival mechanisms—like emotional suppression, masking, and hyper-awareness—helped him endure trauma, but later became barriers to healing. Together, they unpack how these protective strategies evolve into what Jessica calls the Traitor Within—the part of us that once kept us safe, but eventually begins to limit growth, connection, and self-understanding. The conversation also explores masculinity, silence, and why so many men struggle to speak about trauma, along with the importance of safe relationships, support systems, and incremental change in the healing process. Dr. King introduces his 1% philosophy—small, consistent steps toward change—and reminds listeners that healing is not immediate, but possible. This episode is a raw and honest look at trauma, resilience, and what it means to rebuild a life from the inside out.  🌐 Website: https://drjohnaking.com/  📱 Instagram & Socials: @drjohnaking Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Healing the Shame You Learned in Childhood

53 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with psychotherapist and author Kristine Jensen to explore how childhood shame shapes the way we see ourselves—and the patterns we repeat in adulthood. Kristine shares how early experiences of emotional neglect and feeling “not enough” can quietly turn into self-doubt, perfectionism, and a harsh inner critic. Together, they connect this to the Traitor Within—the part of us that once protected us, but now keeps us stuck in cycles of pressure, overperformance, and self-attack. They discuss why these patterns are often misunderstood as personality flaws instead of learned survival responses, and how healing begins with awareness, self-compassion, and learning to meet yourself differently.  This conversation is a powerful reminder: you may have been shaped by your past—but you are not defined by it. About Kristine Jensen: Kristine Jensen is a licensed psychotherapist, speaker, and author of Bruised Not Broken. Her work focuses on helping people understand the hidden roots of self-doubt and heal the shame formed through emotional neglect and early experiences.  🌐 https://kristine-jensen.com/ Key Takeaway: What feels like a personal flaw is often something you learned to survive—and once you see it, you can begin to change it. Support the show

Your Traitor Within: The Safety To Speak

1 hr 29 min

Rewiring the Patterns That Keep You Stuck Show Notes: In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler is joined by therapist and relationship educator Savannah Kizzie-Rai for a powerful conversation about the patterns that quietly shape our relationships—and how they keep us stuck. Savannah’s work centers on nervous system regulation, communication patterns, and emotional safety. Drawing from clinical psychology, family systems theory, and neuroscience-informed approaches, she helps individuals understand how fear, conditioning, and past experiences influence how we show up in connection with others.  Together, Jessica and Savannah explore how the “Traitor Within” shows up in real time—through people-pleasing, hypervigilance, emotional suppression, and the deep need to feel safe, seen, and understood. Savannah shares her personal story of growing up in an emotionally volatile environment, how those early patterns shaped her relationships, and the work it took to break cycles of self-abandonment. This conversation goes beyond labels and into something deeper:  how we participate in our own patterns, how we can take responsibility without shame, and how true healing comes from self-awareness—not self-blame. They also dive into:  Why people-pleasing is often a survival response  How nervous system activation drives conflict and disconnection  The difference between reacting and responding in relationships  Why emotional safety—not perfection—is the foundation of healthy connection  How to move from reactive patterns into self-leadership Savannah’s perspective is grounded in one core truth: psychological struggle is part of being human. Healing is not about eliminating discomfort—but learning how to coexist with it while choosing differently. This episode is a conversation about responsibility, awareness, and what it really means to come back to yourself. Connect with Savannah: Instagram: @_heyitssav Podcast: https://www.thesafetytospeak.com/podcast W...

Your Traitor Within: If Only I'd Known...

59 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW sits down with psychotherapist, author, and narcissistic abuse expert Chelsey Brooke Cole for a deeply honest conversation about how childhood wounds, trauma bonds, and the Traitor Within can keep people stuck in toxic relationships. Chelsey shares her personal story of growing up with a narcissistic father, how those early patterns shaped her adult relationships, and what it was like to survive not one but two narcissistic marriages. Together, Jessica and Chelsey talk about betrayal blindness, shame, trauma bonding, vulnerable versus grandiose narcissism, and the painful reality that even therapists can miss what is happening when they are living inside it. They also explore what healing actually looks like, how survivors can begin rebuilding self-trust, and why resilience, recovery, and hope are possible. Chelsey Brooke Cole is a licensed psychotherapist, certified partner trauma therapist, and bestselling author of If Only I’d Known: How to Outsmart Narcissists, Set Guilt-Free Boundaries, and Create Unshakeable Self-Worth. She specializes in narcissistic abuse, betrayal trauma, and complex trauma, and helps survivors heal through her work, writing, and community. Connect with Chelsey Brooke Cole:  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/chelseybrookecole/ Contact: https://www.chelseybrookecole.com/contact/ Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Healing the Parts That Learned to Survive with Dr. Eva Altobelli

48 min

Your Traitor Within: Healing the Parts That Learned to Survive with Dr. Eva Altobelli In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW sits down with Dr. Eva Altobelli, MD, addiction psychiatrist and founder of Home-LA, a holistic mental health center in Los Angeles that integrates psychiatry, psychotherapy, and ketamine-assisted therapy. Dr. Altobelli shares how childhood experiences can shape the internal survival patterns we carry into adulthood — patterns that sometimes become what Jessica calls the “Traitor Within.” Together they explore how automatic reactions formed in childhood can quietly guide our behaviors, relationships, and sense of safety long after the original circumstances have passed. Drawing from over two decades of work in addiction psychiatry, trauma recovery, and psychedelic-assisted therapy, Dr. Altobelli discusses the importance of relational healing — the idea that real transformation often happens through safe, collaborative connection between clinician and client. The conversation moves between clinical insight and personal reflection as Dr. Altobelli shares her own story of growing up in a chaotic environment and how those early experiences shaped her tendency to over-function, constantly “doing” instead of allowing space for stillness and self-connection. Jessica and Dr. Altobelli also discuss: • how trauma can limit our ability to imagine new possibilities for ourselves  • why safety is the foundation for emotional healing  • the difference between doing and being in modern culture • how ketamine-assisted psychotherapy can help people access insight and shift long-standing patterns • why healing is often more effective when approached collaboratively rather than through rigid treatment models Dr. Altobelli explains how Home-LA (Healing Opportunities for Meaningful Evolution) was created to bring together a multidisciplinary team that can support individuals through many different paths to healing — including psychot...

Your Traitor Within: What's The Big Deal?

1 hr 7 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW speaks with Marriage and Family Therapist Pinkal Panchal about how the emotional patterns we learn in childhood can quietly shape the way we communicate, handle conflict, and build relationships as adults. Pinkal shares her personal “Traitor Within” story and how growing up in a household where conflict meant silence taught her that avoiding communication was the safest response. What once protected her as a child eventually began showing up in her marriage as stonewalling and emotional distance. Together, Jessica and Pinkal explore how the behaviors that once helped us survive can later become barriers to connection. They discuss why silence can feel powerful in the moment, how vulnerability often feels like weakness when we first practice it, and why emotional awareness is the key to breaking generational relationship patterns. Pinkal also shares insights from her work helping couples navigate relationships within traditional family systems, where cultural expectations and silence around emotions can make communication even more complicated. This conversation is ultimately about awareness. When we begin to recognize the “Traitor Within,” the part of us that once protected us but now holds us back, we can start making different choices and create healthier, more emotionally secure relationships. About Pinkal Panchal Pinkal Panchal is a Marriage and Family Therapist based in Orange County, California who helps couples build emotionally secure marriages within traditional family systems. Her work focuses on emotional intelligence and helping individuals better understand the relational patterns they bring into their partnerships. She is also the host of the podcast What’s the Big Deal?, where she challenges mental health stigma through honest conversations paired with neuroscience and psychological insight, one stigma and one story at a time. Connect with Pinkal Panchal Instagram  https://www.instagr...

Your Traitor Within: The Places We Call Home

38 min

In this episode, Jessica welcomes Yolanda Reshemah, a visionary and creative catalyst whose work is rooted in relationships, courage, and elevating people’s stories. Yolanda shares the “Traitor Within” pattern she recently identified in herself: waiting for permission, waiting to be seen, waiting for someone else to validate her before she fully steps into leadership, opportunity, and voice. Together, they unpack how this pattern can show up in career decisions, speaking opportunities, and friendships that look “full” on the surface but aren’t truly reciprocal. Jessica connects the dots to how these internal patterns often begin early in life as a way to feel safe, then quietly become self-sabotage in adulthood. Yolanda also shares the meaning behind her podcast The Places We Call Home, inspired by her own cross-cultural move and the emotional reality of building community, identity, and belonging in a new place. Yolanda also speaks about her involvement with Turntable Housing, a nonprofit supporting youth impacted by trafficking and instability, and closes with a word she can’t shake: metamorphosis. Follow Yolanda and listen to her podcast:  Instagram: @placeswecallhomepod Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3QGSRK1WCWfRAplbdbRAuP?si=753fad8c5ff0410e Support the show

Your Traitor Within: When ADHD Makes You Easier to Gaslight (and How to Get Your Reality Back)

1 hr 1 min

Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW is joined by psychotherapist and author Kristen Baird-Goldman to talk about why ADHD and other neurodivergent traits can make people especially vulnerable to narcissistic manipulation. They unpack the “self-blame loop,” rejection sensitivity, rumination (“my day in court”), trauma bonding, and why working with an ADHD-informed, trauma-informed therapist can be the difference between healing and being retraumatized. About Kristen  Kristen Baird-Goldman, LMFT, ATR, ADHD-CCSP, CIMHP is the author of The CBT Workbook for Adult ADHD and the founder/director of Baird Integrated Therapy, an integrative psychotherapy practice and ADHD center. Find Kristen  Instagram: @theadhdguru  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/kristen.bairdgoldman/ LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/kristen-baird-goldman-m-s-lmft-cimhp-6178817/ Practice: Baird Integrated Therapy (website + discovery call) Disclaimer  This episode is for education only and is not mental health treatment. If you are in immediate danger, call 911. In the U.S., you can call or text 988 for crisis support. Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Breakthroughs With Beany

1 hr 2 min

Season 2 of Your Traitor Within opens with a powerful conversation between Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, and abuse recovery coach Beany, founder of Breakthroughs with Beany. Beany shares her deeply personal story of surviving a decade-long abusive relationship, the trauma bond that kept her stuck, and how her “Traitor Within” — the internal voice shaped by early wounds — convinced her to endure instead of leave. Together, Jessica and Beany unpack the psychology behind narcissistic abuse, love bombing, cognitive dissonance, intermittent reinforcement, and why leaving is rarely a single moment. This episode explores: • How trauma bonding can feel like addiction  • Why “strength” can become a mask that keeps you silent  • The role of external validation in abusive dynamics  • Why physical distance creates clarity  • How healing is built through small daily decisions  • The importance of community in recovery Beany now supports survivors through one-on-one coaching, group programs, and a membership community designed to help women break trauma bonds and rebuild self-worth. Connect with Beany / Breakthroughs with Beany:  Instagram: http://instagram.com/breakthroughswithbeany YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@breakthroughswithbeany TikTok: http://tiktok.com/@breakthroughswithbeany Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/share/1AL3TRJEoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Content note: This episode includes discussion of abuse, stalking, and sexual violence. If you are in danger or need support:  National Domestic Violence Hotline (US): 1-800-799-7233 or text START to 88788  988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline: Call or text 988 Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Margaret Josephs on Choosing Herself

45 min

In this deeply personal episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with her longtime friend Margaret Josephs for an honest conversation about how childhood conditioning quietly shapes adult relationships — and how learning to recognize that internal “traitor” voice can change everything. Margaret reflects on growing up parentified, learning early to normalize chaos, over-responsibility, and emotional self-silencing. She shares how those early survival patterns followed her into adulthood, influencing the red flags she excused, the control she tolerated, and the guilt that kept her staying longer than she should have. What looks like strength from the outside often felt like quiet self-betrayal on the inside. Together, Jessica and Margaret unpack how the Traitor Within isn’t a villain — it’s a coping mechanism that once helped her survive. But when left unexamined, that same voice can keep us stuck in relationships that require us to shrink, justify, or “put up and shut up.” Margaret speaks candidly about therapy, boundaries, safety, motherhood, and the moment she realized she could no longer live a life that denied who she truly was. This episode is a powerful exploration of parentification, trauma bonding, emotional control, and the long road from survival to self-trust — told with honesty, humor, and compassion. Margaret Josephs is an entrepreneur, author, fashion designer, and television personality best known for The Real Housewives of New Jersey. She is the founder of Macbeth Collection, co-founder of the mocktail brand Soirée, and the author of Caviar Dreams, Tuna Fish Budget. Beyond television and business, Margaret is a devoted mother and wife, and a long-standing advocate for LGBTQ+ rights, children battling cancer, and causes centered on women’s empowerment, independence, and self-worth. Known for her candor, compassion, and resilience, she consistently uses her platform to support community, philanthropy, and conversations around grow...

Your Traitor Within: Happiest Hour & Sobriety with Paula Devine

26 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, talks with certified recovery coach Paula Devine, founder of Happiest Hour Concierge Sobriety. For over 30 years, alcohol was woven into Paula’s life — from high school and college partying to a career in the liquor industry and then into the “mommy wine culture” of early motherhood. On the outside she was high-functioning, involved, and “doing it all.” On the inside she was living with anxiety, hangovers, shame, and the quiet realization that alcohol was slowly dulling who she really was. Paula shares how her Traitor Within showed up through alcohol: the voice that told her she “deserved” a drink, that she needed it to relax, to connect, to cope, even as her kids began to mirror back the impact. She describes the moment she finally said, “I’m done,” what it was like to stop in a marriage and social world built around drinking, and how her husband’s support and new shared rituals (like pickleball instead of cocktails) helped her hold that line. Now over three years sober, Paula talks about the surprising happiness and clarity that came with sobriety, how she handles romanticizing the past like a “toxic ex,” and how she gently supports women who slip without shame, focusing instead on triggers, self-awareness, and what the lapse can teach them. Paula also shares how Happiest Hour was born out of her own path — a small group of friends meeting regularly to support each other — and how it evolved into a women’s sobriety coaching practice and community in Lighthouse Point, Florida. Her approach is holistic and personalized: therapy, meetings, coaching, movement, community, and whatever else helps a woman step into an alcohol-free life that actually feels like hers. You can find Paula at:  Website: www.happiesthouraf.com Instagram: @happiest_hour_af Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Rebuilding with Tim Kassouf

1 hr 19 min

Your Traitor Within — (@timstagramcpt)In this episode, Jessica welcomes transformation coach and personal trainer Tim Kassouf, whose story is a striking example of what can happen when insecurity, perfectionism, and pain go unspoken for too long — and what becomes possible when someone finally turns toward the truth of their life. Tim talks openly about the body-image wounds he carried since childhood, the pressure to perform his way into worth, and how those early messages eventually shaped a devastating addiction to Adderall and heroin. He describes the collapse of his first marriage, the moment he no longer wanted to live, and the second chance that came only because he stayed one more day. What follows is the slow rebuild: sobriety, AA, faith, community, and the discipline of fitness — not as aesthetics, but as structure, identity, and self-respect. Tim shares how purpose returned through helping others, how accountability became a lifeline, and why effort—not outcomes—is now the foundation of his life. He speaks candidly about men’s silent struggles with body image, the exhaustion of living as a chameleon, the peace that comes from authenticity, and the grounded, mutual love he eventually found in his second marriage. This conversation is about recovery, discipline, self-forgiveness, and the ongoing work of recognizing the Traitor Within when it speaks — and choosing differently, again and again. Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Modern Dating

38 min

In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, sits down with dating and confidence coach Terri Boucher (@terri_boucher) to explore how the Traitor Within shows up in modern dating. Terri shares her story of growing up in chaos, emotional neglect, poverty, and hyper independence, and how those early wounds pushed her into survival mode, masculine energy, and relationships with emotionally unavailable men. Jessica and Terri discuss how trauma and protective parts shape our dating choices, why so many women end up chasing, settling, or abandoning themselves, and what it actually takes to step into authenticity, feminine energy, boundaries, self-worth, and healthy relationship patterns. Terri explains how she guides women through nervous system regulation, mindset work, deeper awareness, and aligned action so they can stop repeating old cycles, stop dating from their wounds, and start attracting relationships that feel safe, connected, and aligned with who they truly are. Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Somatic Trauma with Emily Colligan

54 min

Emily Colligan is a somatic trauma and narcissistic abuse recovery coach who helps women break trauma-bond cycles, regulate their nervous system, and rebuild a secure sense of self after toxic relationships. Through body-based healing, attachment work, and deep pattern rewiring, Emily guides clients out of survival mode and into the grounded, empowered version of themselves they've never been allowed to be. Connect with Emily:  Instagram: @emilycolligantherapy  Website: emilycolligantherapy.com Support the show

Your Traitor Within: National Adoption Month

55 min

In honor of National Adoption Month, Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, sits down with her longtime friend and fellow adoptee, Barbara Eckert of All The Feels Healing Space, to share the parts of their adoption stories that shaped their “Traitor Within” — the protective inner voice that helped them survive but later drove people-pleasing, over-trusting, secrecy, and self-silencing. They discuss late disclosures, abandoned fantasies about birth families, the “primal wound,” somatic fallout, and practical tools for repair, including breathwork, therapy, and community. This candid conversation offers language, validation, and next steps for adult adoptees and adoptive parents alike.  Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW: @jessicaannepressler | yourtraitorwithin.com Barbara Eckert: @allthefeelshealingspace | allthefeelshealingspace.com Support the show

Your Traitor Within: My Brother Who Bragged About Being a Master Manipulator

41 min

"My brother used to openly call himself a master manipulator — he was proud of it. And honestly, he did have a lot of people manipulated, including my parents. The painful irony is that when he died at forty from an overdose, my father — the one who had been so controlled by him — was the most devastated. He died six months later. My mother was already gone. And while I can’t prove it, I’ve always believed the stress my brother caused helped take her, too. The point isn’t the tragedy, though. The point is that narcissists destroy — not always on purpose, but through the chaos they create. So when someone tells you who they are, believe them. My brother told us exactly who he was. " - Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW  Support the show

Your Traitor Within: David J. Weeks on Surviving Childhood PART 2

1 hr 13 min

In Part 2, Jessica and David J. Weeks (@djweeks_) move from the facts of David’s childhood into the adult fallout—and the work of repair. David traces how early chaos trained his body to confuse intensity with intimacy, how disorganized attachment and the survival role of “the chameleon” kept him safe then but costly now, and how narcissistic partners can exploit abandonment wounds through tactics like love-bombing, power imbalance, and data mining (“gaining information to use later against you”). He also reframes trafficking: it isn’t only the cinematic scenario—grooming and relational exploitation of minors belong in that definition, too. Together they highlight practical next steps: naming the pattern, regulating first, moving logistics to one written lane, and building a steady support map so safer connection becomes possible. We cover: Why perceived abandonment can trigger the same alarm as the real thingThe difference between intensity and intimacy (and how sex can cement a trauma bond)Narcissistic tactics in adult relationships: love-bombing → power imbalance → data mining → leverageReframing trafficking for minors: grooming and relational exploitation behind closed doorsRepair in practice: body-first resets, written-only logistics, simple boundaries you can repeat, community careAbout David: Trauma & Recovery Coach, complex-trauma survivor, and author of the forthcoming memoir Surviving Childhood. He coaches survivors to reclaim safety, language, boundaries, and voice. IG: @djweeks_. Resources (U.S.): 988 (Suicide & Crisis Lifeline) • RAINN 800-656-HOPE • National DV Hotline 1-800-799-7233 (text START to 88788) Support the show

Your Traitor Within: David J. Weeks on Surviving Childhood PART 1

1 hr 17 min

(Part 1) Content note: Discussion of childhood abuse and sexual assault/trafficking (non-graphic). Summary Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, sits with David J. Weeks—a complex-trauma survivor and Trauma & Recovery Coach—to tell the truth of his childhood and the long road back. Raised by a narcissistic mother and an antisocial stepfather, David endured years of torment. By age 14, he had experienced all 10 Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs). At 13, while searching for love he never received at home, he was exploited and raped by a 39-year-old neighbor; the abuse escalated into repeated assaults and trafficking. In this first half, David names what happened, explains how a child’s nervous system bonds to any attachment it can find, and shares why emotional abuse can become the deepest wound. He also describes the “chameleon” role that helped him survive—and why speaking now is part of breaking silence and stigma. About David David J. Weeks is a Trauma & Recovery Coach supporting survivors in reclaiming safety, language, and choice. He is writing his memoir, Surviving Childhood, to be released soon. IG: @djweeks_. Notable Moments Home life: control, cruelty, and the cost of “keeping the peace.”The first assault at 13, how it escalated into trafficking, and the silence that followed.Why children bond to what’s available (even when it isn’t safe).Emotional abuse as the wound that lingers longest.The chameleon strategy—protective then, costly later.Pull Quotes “By fourteen, I’d hit every ACE.” — David J. Weeks“I became a chameleon because it kept me safe.” — David J. Weeks“It wasn’t your fault—your nervous system chose connection when safety wasn’t available.” — Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSWResources (U.S.) 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (call/text/chat 24/7) National Domestic Violence Hotline 1-800-799-7233 (text START to 88788) RAINN 800-656-HOPE (Sexual Assault Hotline) Part 2 continues with how these patterns show up in adult relationships—and the tools David uses to...

Your Traitor Within: Marge Sr.

54 min

Join me with Marge Sr. (Margaret Kiss, @margesr) as she reflects on fleeing communist Hungary as a child, rebuilding her life in the U.S., navigating intergenerational wounds, and choosing daily acts of love over hate—while also offering hard-earned wisdom on mental health, advocacy, and staying grounded in turbulent times. @margesr  Support the show

Your Traitor Within: My friend, Janet

44 min

On this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler welcomes a dear friend and creative powerhouse, photographer Janet Barnett. Jessica and Janet’s friendship is rooted not only in their professional collaborations—Jessica has been one of Janet’s subjects, using her portraits across her own platforms—but also in the deep mutual respect and trust they share. That closeness gives this conversation an intimacy and candor that you’ll feel instantly. Janet’s story begins on the Sunset Strip of the late ’80s and early ’90s, where she captured the swagger of rock stars in their natural habitat. But the real shift in her career came when she turned her lens toward women over forty, celebrating their unapologetic power, lived experience, and self-possession. Through her work, Janet reminds us that life after forty isn’t about fading into the background—it’s about turning up the volume. Jessica guides Janet through her own traitor within story, one centered around business, money, and self-worth. For decades, Janet struggled with the messaging and modeling she grew up with—scarcity mindsets, cultural narratives that women should be givers, and an inner critic that kept her from asking for what she deserved. She shares how this lack of confidence cost her financially and emotionally, and how she is now rewriting that script. With honesty and humor, Janet talks about the daily practice of confronting her inner saboteur, learning to charge what she’s worth, and embracing that self-care and compensation are not selfish—they are necessary. Together, Jessica and Janet explore the ways our “traitor within” shows up in business, how intergenerational patterns shape self-worth, and why it’s never too late to change. You’ll hear about Janet’s evolution from shooting rock stars to empowering women entrepreneurs, her reflections on adoption and family, and the mindset shifts that continue to shape her path forward. If you’ve ever struggled with asking for more—whether that’s in...

Your Traitor Within: CPTSD & Jessica' Story

18 min

Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, and producer Anthony have a candid, non-graphic conversation about C-PTSD and Jessica’s experience surviving a suicidal crisis—naming the “Traitor Within,” how emotional flashbacks show up, and the small nervous-system tools that helped her choose to stay. Short, compassionate, and practical. (If you need help in the U.S., call or text 988.) Support the show

Your Traitor Within: Stephanie Schultz: Art, Anxiety, and the Traitor Within

47 min

On this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with Stephanie Schultz—founder of Blue Blood Metal Jewelry , Senior Art Consultant with SH Modern, and Pure Barre Fort Myers instructor. Stephanie’s journey has taken her from museum fundraising to the world of fine art and one-of-a-kind jewelry, with features in British Vogue and even the Real Housewives universe. But today, Stephanie opens up about something deeper: the “traitor within” that silenced her voice for years. Raised between two cultures, she shares how shyness, self-doubt, and fear of anger shaped her childhood—and how those patterns resurfaced in her adult relationships and career. Together, Jessica and Stephanie explore: The link between childhood silencing and adult intimacy blocksLearning to identify triggers in relationships—and choosing vulnerability over fearHow anger can be a healthy signal instead of something to repressThe role of creativity, teaching, and fitness in building confidenceWhy taking risks (even scared) can bring true connection and growthStephanie’s honesty and insight remind us that healing isn’t about perfection—it’s about practice, self-compassion, and daring to be seen. Highlights “Silence felt like safety, but it also created distance.”“You can take risks with the right people—and that helps you risk again.”“Parents don’t have to be perfect; they just need to be good enough.”“Do it scared. Bravery is contagious.”Connect with Stephanie Jewelry: Website | Instagram: @bluebloodmetal Personal: Instagram: @stephanie_m_schultz Pure Barre Fort Myers: @purebarrefortmyers Connect with Jessica Website: jessicaannepressler.com Instagram: @jessicaannepresslerSupport the show

Your Traitor Within: April Lynn Kirkwood Drops The Mic

46 min

Jessica sits down with April Kirkwood—licensed holistic therapist, ageless style advocate, and TV favorite from The Golden Bachelor and the latest Bachelor in Paradise—to talk about healing as a lifelong commitment. They unpack triggers (“what in me still needs healing?”), boundaries as self-protection (not punishment), and what it means to live “large” in your own power, not for applause. Big themes: Healing is messy, nonlinear—and not a 10-session fix.Triggers as teachers: notice → name → choose.Boundaries > people-pleasing (you can care without being responsible).Intergenerational patterns, “the traitor within,” and self-worth.Glimmers: catching micro-moments of good to raise your nervous-system floor.Choosing soul over image: freedom from fear as a daily practice.Mic-drop lines: “There’s no failure in healing—only lessons.”“When I’m triggered, I ask: what in me still needs healing?”“Boundaries aren’t revenge. They’re self-protection.”“I want to be large—just not that way. Large in my own power.”About April April Kirkwood, M.Ed., LPC (holistic therapist) is an international podcaster, speaker, and #1 bestselling author known for empowering women to tell the truth, set loving boundaries, and reclaim self-worth. With 25+ years in mental health and two master’s degrees, she blends mind-body-spirit tools with a playful, ageless approach to life and style. You’ve seen her sparkle on screen—today you’ll meet the grounded healer using humor and soul work to help others find their voice. Connect & promote: Website / sessions: aprilkirkwood.comInstagram: @aprillynnkirkwoodTikTok: @aprillynnkirkwood0Booking / media: contactaprilkirkwood@gmail.com Links & resources Listen & follow: Your Traitor Within (Apple/Spotify)If you need support (US): National Domestic Violence Hotline 1-800-799-7233 (text START to 88788) • 988 Suicide & Crisis LifelineSupport the show

Your Traitor Within: Laura Richards — Break the Silence. Break the Cycle.

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Laura is an international podcaster, #1 bestselling author, and speaker dedicated to empowering women. Through her global podcast That’s Where I’m At and her bestselling book Married To A “Nice” Guy: Getting Over Narcissistic Abuse, she shares her recovery from a 32-year marriage to a narcissist. Her mission: shine a light on narcissistic abuse so women know they’re never alone and that healing is possible—rebuilding self-worth, reclaiming their voices, and stepping into strength. In this episode: How telling your story breaks shameThe Traitor Within: unlearning people-pleasing & staying smallBoundaries as self-protection (info diet, Gray Rock, no-JADE)Why you need trauma-informed therapyLinks: Married To A “Nice” Guy — get the book here“You’re Not Crazy” ebook — get it hereLaura’s podcast — http://www.thatswhereimatpodcast.com Support the show

Treating The Traitor: with Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW & Anthony

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In this special behind-the-scenes episode, host Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW and producer Anthony take listeners into the core concept of the show: the traitor within. Jessica shares her definition of the traitor — the part of ourselves shaped by pain, trauma, and old beliefs that holds us back or keeps us in unhealthy cycles. Anthony offers his perspective on recognizing his own traitor, and together they explore how naming it is the first step toward freedom. They revisit some standout past guests, including: Braunwyn Windham-Burke — on sobriety, identity, and living authentically.Arci Grey — on healing from deep trauma and reclaiming self-trust.Dr. Nadine “Dr. Nae” Macaluso — on breaking trauma bonds and navigating complex PTSD.John Graham — on confronting inner toxicity and building a life of service.…and they unpack even more powerful stories from other guests who’ve faced down their traitors in different ways — from overcoming loss, to rebuilding after abuse, to rewriting the narratives they once believed about themselves. Sponsor Message: This episode is brought to you by the Your Traitor Within Journal — a guided journal designed to help you uncover, name, and dismantle the patterns that keep you stuck. Filled with prompts, exercises, and reflections from Jessica, it’s a personal toolkit to help you silence the traitor and strengthen your authentic voice. 📖 Order yours now at JessicaAnnePressler.com Why Listen: If you’ve ever wondered why you repeat certain patterns, doubt your worth, or hold yourself back, this episode offers personal insight from Jessica and Anthony, plus takeaways from past guests whose stories show just how universal — and conquerable — the traitor within can be. Support the show

Your Traitor Within: The Incomparable John Graham

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Finding Strength by Facing Your Inner Traitor – with John Graham In this deeply powerful episode, host Jessica Anne Pressler, LCSW, sits down with remarkable guest John Graham, former U.S. Diplomat, adventurer, author, and co-leader of the renowned Giraffe Heroes Project. They explore how confronting your internal “traitor”—the self-sabotaging critic born from past wounds—is essential for discovering authentic courage and purpose. ✨  Key Highlights: Childhood Experiences: John vulnerably shares how being bullied shaped his early struggles and internal dialogue about strength and identity.A Life of Adventure: From scaling uncharted peaks in Denali to navigating war-torn regions as a diplomat in Vietnam, John’s life is a testament to resilience and bold exploration.Love and Partnership: Hear the inspiring story of how John’s life transformed through his relationship with Ann Medlock, the visionary behind the Giraffe Heroes Project—a powerful nonprofit highlighting everyday heroes worldwide.Facing the “Inner Traitor”: John’s honest reflection about how confronting his inner critic allowed him to move beyond toxic beliefs about strength, masculinity, and vulnerability.With humor, candor, and profound wisdom, John encourages listeners to recognize and transform their inner critics into sources of strength and authentic living. 👤  About John Graham: John Graham is a captivating speaker, author, former U.S. Diplomat, adventurer, and co-leader of the Giraffe Heroes Project. John has inspired thousands globally, championing courageous individuals who “stick their necks out” for meaningful change. 🔗  Connect with John Graham: Website: JohnGraham.orgGiraffe Heroes Project: giraffe.orgFacebook: facebook.com/giraffeheroesTikTok: @badassgranddadSupport the show

Your Traitor Within: From Surviving to Thriving

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In today’s powerful episode, Jessica Anne Pressler speaks openly with Amanda Marino, a Certified Intervention Professional, Certified Recovery and Life Coach, international speaker, and the inspiring co-founder of Next Level Recovery Associates. Amanda courageously shares her personal journey, beginning with a childhood scarred by trauma, abuse, and instability. She vividly describes how these early experiences shaped her own internal "traitor," leading to years of harmful coping mechanisms and self-destructive choices. Yet, Amanda’s story is one of resilience, transformation, and profound healing. She discusses her journey through addiction, trauma recovery, motherhood, and the strength she discovered through vulnerability and self-compassion. Amanda’s honesty about her past struggles—from childhood abuse and trauma to substance use and mental health battles—highlights her message that no one is beyond healing. Amanda is a fierce advocate for mental health, recovery, and personal empowerment. Her professional appearances include A&E's Intervention and Digital Addiction, where she has shared her expertise as a professional interventionist. Her experiences in the entertainment industry have uniquely positioned her to help high-profile clients navigate recovery while remaining grounded. Jessica and Amanda explore: How childhood trauma shapes our inner critic ("traitor within").The complex journey from self-destruction to self-love.Overcoming shame and stigma around mental health and recovery.Creating healthy boundaries and redefining family.Amanda's inspiring path from surviving trauma to becoming a successful international speaker, entrepreneur, and dedicated mother.Amanda believes passionately: "Everyone deserves a beautiful life and happiness. I am not special or unique—anyone can do what I’ve done if they truly want to heal."This episode is a reminder of the strength found in vulnerability, the power of seeking help, and the transformative potential of embracing y...

Your Traitor Within- From Prison to Purpose.

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Your Traitor Within Podcast – Special Guest Steve Hopper In today's powerful episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica Anne Pressler sits down with Steve Hopper, an internationally recognized keynote speaker, author, and peak performance expert. Steve shares his gripping story—from prison inmate to global influencer—and explores how confronting the "traitor within" helped him turn his darkest moments into a mission to inspire millions. Through authentic vulnerability, Steve provides practical wisdom on overcoming self-sabotage, embracing life's purpose, and stepping into your full potential. 🌟 About Steve Hopper: After a life-changing wake-up call in prison, Steve Hopper dedicated himself to empowering others through powerful storytelling, impactful speaking, and authentic connection. His bestselling book, "From Prison to Purpose," chronicles his transformative journey and offers a roadmap for turning life's setbacks into opportunities for greatness. Connect with Steve: 🌐 Website & Book: stevehopperinternational.com📘 Facebook: Steve Hopper InternationalSupport the show

Your Traitor Within- "Trusting Your Inner Voice" with Mike Rudnicki

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"Trusting Your Inner Voice" with Mike Rudnicki In this episode of Your Traitor Within, Jessica sits down with Mike Rudnicki, author, mindfulness coach, Reiki master, and devoted advocate for empowering children through self-awareness and mindfulness. Mike shares how he overcame his own internal doubts—his "traitor within"—by learning to trust his intuition rather than relying solely on logic and external expectations. He opens up about the pivotal moments when he chose to listen to his inner voice, transforming his career and life path despite fear and uncertainty. Listen as Mike discusses: How to recognize and silence the limiting thoughts holding you back.Practical steps for connecting deeply with your intuition.His transformative work teaching mindfulness and emotional empowerment to kids.This inspiring conversation offers tools and encouragement for anyone seeking to quiet self-doubt and embrace their true calling. Learn more about Mike Rudnicki: mikerudnicki.comkmrpartners.comGrab his books >>> https://mikerudnicki.com/order-books/ols/all?sortOption=descend_by_popularityListen now to discover the power of trusting your inner voice. Support the show

Traitor Within- Healing From a Father's Betrayal

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🎙️ Episode Show Notes: Bobbi Rudnicki – Healing From a Father's Betrayal  Join Jessica Anne Pressler for an intimate and transformative conversation with Bobbi Rudnicki, an accomplished professional, dedicated mentor, and advocate for women’s emotional and career empowerment. In this heartfelt episode, Bobbi courageously opens up about her journey with her "traitor within"—the internal voice rooted in past experiences that fuels self-doubt, fear of abandonment, and patterns of self-sabotage. Bobbi reflects on the complex emotions shaped by witnessing infidelity in her parents' marriage and explores how those early experiences influenced her own relationships and perceptions of trust. Through deep self-reflection and personal growth, Bobbi shares how she confronted and rewrote her inner narratives, ultimately finding authentic love, emotional security, and spiritual grounding. In this vulnerable discussion, Jessica and Bobbi highlight the importance of recognizing the impact of parental dynamics on children, the empowering process of healing intergenerational trauma, and the transformative power of rewriting one's story to manifest the life you truly desire. Bobbi's inspirational journey is a testament to the strength found in vulnerability, the significance of loving oneself first, and the profound impact of embracing personal growth. ✨ Key Themes: Overcoming childhood trauma and infidelity's impact on childrenUnderstanding and compassionately managing your "traitor within"Manifesting authentic, healthy relationshipsHealing intergenerational woundsEmbracing spiritual growth and emotional maturityDive in for a powerful conversation that will encourage you to reflect, heal, and empower your own journey. Support the show

Your Traitor Within- Joy School Class In Session

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Join Jessica Anne Pressler in an uplifting and transformative conversation with Lisa McCourt, acclaimed author and joyful living expert whose radiant books have captivated over 9 million readers worldwide. As the dynamic host of the Joy Zone podcast and visionary founder of Joy School, Lisa masterfully teaches the rare art of emotional buoyancy, guiding thousands towards joy and emotional maturity for over two decades. Lisa McCourt writes books about joy and love that have sold over 9 million copies and teaches the rare art of emotional buoyancy through her online Joy School. Winner of the title “Best Guest Expert” in the 2024 Women in Podcasting awards, and author of the award-winning book Free Your Joy, she also leads retreats and live events in South Florida and other locations. You’ll find Lisa’s many offerings at LisaMcCourt.com. In this deeply personal episode, Lisa courageously explores her “Traitor Within,” revealing the internal challenges and transformative journeys that shaped her extraordinary capacity for joy and self-actualization. Jessica and Lisa share insights from their longstanding friendship, reflecting on how Lisa’s own experiences profoundly enrich her teachings and life philosophy. When Lisa isn’t inspiring souls through her online Joy School or in-person events, she finds tranquility in nature with her husband and daughters, lends her voice to a choir, and passionately leads her local PFLAG chapter as president. Discover Lisa’s inspiring journey and learn how to cultivate peace and bliss within your own life. ✨ Connect with Lisa McCourt: Home - Lisa McCourt - JOY School - Happiness Life CoachingUpcoming Events - Lisa McCourt - JOY School - Happiness Life CoachingFree Your Joy: The Twelve Keys to Sustainable Happiness (Amazon) Support the show

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